I know I complain about my SIL a lot and it may be because I am bitter and jealous of her children and the fact it took her a total 2 months for the first and 1 month for the second. Or it could also be that she is a little insensitive to what J and I are going through. I tend to think it is a little bit of both. My SIL tagged me in her daughter's dance photos and she is constanly calling me saying her girls miss me and want to see me, she seems to expect me to come over more than once a week to play with the girls. She is constantly asking me to "help" her with the girls becuase she can't take care of both of them at the same time. J thinks I am oversensitive, but honestly NO ONE understands what I am going through not having a body that works properly, I mean really this is what women are made for right? to bare children.
Today is definetely a low day for me in this infertility journey. I am in limbo waiting for my period to start so I can begin taking crappy meds and give myself shots with needles I'm terrifyed of, and possibly after doing all this to my body, find out that my husbands numbers suck and didn't wash well and waste another whole cycle.
Infertility sucks and sometimes so does my family. I feel so alone sometimes.
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