Started My Medication. sucks.

I started Clomid on Monday and I hate the side affects. The first day I was a little crampy, had a headache and hot flashes. Now if you live in New England you know how hot it has been the past couple of days, so here I am running on the treadmill ( I don't run outside, who wants people staring at them?) and all of the sudden my chest felt like it was onfire and was radiating up to my face. It has taken everything I have to finish my running this week, and that is so not like me. Tuesday it was much of the same thing, but an added level of blahness( yes I made up my own word). Today much of the same thing, but more cramping and headaches. I know on The Bump ladies have mentioned symptoms going on past the 5 days of taking the pills, holy hell I hope that is not the case for me. Oh and the bloating can go away too. I work out 5 days a week and eat healthy all the time. I have put on a pound in a half and CANNOT take it off for the life of me. This shit sucks.

Another thing I want to share is reading material if you are going through infertility you might be like me and want to read as much as you can and get some inspiration from other women who have gone through the same thing. I do this by reading other women's blogs and have bought a couple of books. One I am reading right now is " Every Drunken Cheerleader, Why Not Me?" I really like it, I love her writing style and I have come to terms with some of the feelings I've had towards other women with children and who talk about their children ALL the time. I am in no way over it and it is still hard and I love that I have my blog to vent even if no one reads it, everyone going through Infertility is going to need to vent and have encouragement every once in awhile. So if anyone reads this and is looking for a great book for inspirartion and just to read about someone else going through this I highly suggest it.

Oh and a stupid infertile comment I recieved recently involved a conversation with a former co-worker. She knows what I have been going through and she asked me how everything was going. I told her I am sick of it I don't like the medication, the waiting and the 2 years I have wasted. She looked at me and said " but you just started the process." this annoyed me because yes I just started treatment, but there is a lot of things that lead up to this including the 3 years I have been off birth control, all the testing the ups and downs of being ready to do treatment and than not being ready. I don't like feeling like my feelings aren't valid because I am not on my 6th IUI or 3rd IVF.  Now that I have vented, time to pop another pill.