Updates

 I know I haven't written in a while and a lot really has gone on since the last time. First things first, J and I went to the fertility specialist in the next town over to discuss our options. We both came to the conclusion that we did not want to go to the Urologist and wait around and see if  varicocele surgery would work, we decided to just move on with the next step to get pregnant. I loved my specialist and she was really knowledgeable. She explained that J didn’t need to do the surgery we still qualify for and IUI. So this is where we are starting Clomid + Trigger + IUI = Baby?  I had a ton of blood work to do before we began; as a matter of fact they took 7 vials just today.  We should be starting our first treatment in about 2 weeks!

                We really hope one cycle will work however that is not always the case; the IUI will bring our chances of conceiving up to 20-25%, this is about the same chance a normal healthy couple has every month. I did read though if an IUI is going to work it will in the first 3 treatments 90 % of the time. This sounds all great and dandy right? We will finally get a chance right? Well maybe not. The DR did say that J’s count changed so much from one SA to the next that actually his guys might not respond to the IUI wash well and we might not even get an IUI. The only good thing about that is we won’t be waiting around we would go right into IVF cycle planning. I hope it does not come to this because it is a lot more medication, more invasive and much more uncomfortable feeling for me.

                If we do end up doing IUI however this is what it would look like:

1)      On Cycle day 5 (CD5) I will start Clomid, this little pill causes bloat, hot flashes, uncomfortable abdomen pain and sometimes SEVER mood swings,( I know I’m looking forward to all this too). I will take these wonder pills till about CD9 when I should have 1 to 2 good quality eggs.

2)      Next I will head on in to the doctors where she will do an ultrasound to see how my eggs are doing and to better time when I need to trigger.

3)      The trigger shot is a shot of HCG (yes the pregnancy hormone, and no It does not make me pregnant) I will be administering this myself or if I am feeling really daring J will do it for me. We will have this timed to happen at precisely the right time because it causes me to drop my now ripe and pretty eggs.

4)      At about 12 hours after trigger I will come in for the IUI this is kind of personal so if you think it will make you uncomfortable, stop reading now. I will be bringing a sample that J luckily gets to do at home. She will wash them (takes about an hour to 2 hours) and then will get a long catheter and insert the sample into my uterus.

And then I am all done for about 2 weeks when I will go back in to have my beta (blood) drawn to see if anything happened, most women would be put on progesterone in the 2WW, but my DR doesn’t think it will be necessary so we will see how it goes.

CD2

So CD 2 (Cycle Day 2) that means another month not pregnant and another month closer to when I will be, atleast thats the positive way I'm looking at it. I am sad it didn't happen, but really I don't have a hope every month like ohh this is the month!! Because medically wise it isn't going to happen atleast not yet.

Now from my pity party to that little bit of hope. I found a reproductive specialist center in NH it is about an hour and a half away, but I think we will finally be able to get the ball rolling. J and I have decided we really don't want to do a varicocele repair. this is when they widden one of the viens in the penis to allow better moving sperm to get through, we have done a lot of research and found sometimes it helps, sometimes it makes it worse and sometimes it doesn't do anything. After talking about it we aren't sure the risk is worth it.

By talking to the specialist we might be able to just move right on to an IUI (Intrauterine Insemination ) this is when they will take the good sperm from J do a wash and just insert it right into the uterus therfore more sperm would make it to the target. I feel this is where we want to go next because it has been 16 months of trying. So we will see what the specialist says when we get in to see her. hopefully I will have an appointment by the end of the day!